Give children a little self-destruction shock to their worldview.

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Even if we don't look at it from that perspective, isn't Mayumi Haga's own responsibility to complete her part of this plan?

She was born for this purpose, and she lives in this world for this ultimate goal.

Why did you come into this world, Mayumi?

The words of God still echoed in her ears, and Mayumi Haga's answer remained unchanged, though it was tinged with bitterness.

For her responsibility.

Faced with Shimha's outstretched hand, wanting to take the fire from her, Haga Mayumi finally took it out.

But she didn't hand it over immediately; instead, she held it in her palm and looked up.

She asked a trivial question: "So, you've always remembered me?"

"I have never forgotten the memory of that time when she was my mother, but I still managed to distance myself from her."

Seeing my deep sorrow, seeing my wandering and hardship, seeing my life filled with suffering... and then, taking everything away from me again? Mayumi Haga looked at Shimha, her eyes silent and filled with sadness.

She was taught to shoulder responsibility because she had to hone her tools.

She must keep moving forward, never stop, all for this moment.

A deep weariness overwhelmed Mayumi Haga's mind, leaving her feeling suffocated and disoriented.

Like a small fish in the ocean, it keeps swimming and gets trapped in the sea, unable to find a way out.

Only in that distant dream did she possess a small boat.

But that was a cage that confined her to her responsibilities; beyond the small boat lay a vast and endless deep sea.

She looked at her unfamiliar mother and suddenly smiled bitterly.

Her very first part as a human being was all a lie.

It's okay to be a little more willful.

After confirming several times, Mayumi Haga finally agreed to hand over the fire, but only after this farce that changed the world line came to an end.

She didn't say anything more, not even a single extra word to Shimha, and turned to leave.

She walked quietly to the door, and heard Lania chasing after her from behind.

"Are you... alright?" The wizard, who was never straightforward, frowned, expressing his concern.

Now is not the time to be tsundere; Mayumi looks genuinely upset.

Despite this, Mayumi did not become hysterical, but calmly discussed the time for delivering the fire.

Actually, there was no need to give away the torch so early. Mayumi Haga also wanted to spend more time with her old friends, so they decided to do it a little later.

Lania felt that Shimha's words, "Anyway, you're already used to it, aren't you? It's all about parting," were inappropriate.

"This is going too far, and I'm starting to waver a little."

Mayumi Haga turned to look at her, her expression indifferent.

Rania was stunned.

"...I'm fine."

"Haga Mayumi lowered her eyes, her composure was unbelievable."

"After all, this is indeed the best solution."

Rania stared at her, a pang of sadness in her heart: "I..." "If you apologize now..."

"Haga Mayumi subconsciously sped up her speech, interrupting Rania's words. She looked up, her eyes suddenly stern and unfamiliar, "Then you are no longer my friend."

Rania shut her mouth, looked away, and then, feeling somewhat embarrassed by Yuga Mayumi's intimidation, she made up for it with a "humph".

"I don't regret it, but you can complain a little about things like this."

"Lania said, "From an official standpoint, there's really nothing wrong with doing this, but for Mayumi Haga herself, it probably wouldn't be a good solution."

But Mayumi Haga accepted all of this, which left her with indescribably complicated feelings.

When she first met Mayumi Haga, she felt that Mayumi Haga was not an ordinary person.

Rather, it doesn't even seem like a human being.

They are capable of self-destruction without hesitation, and will not hesitate to sacrifice their own interests; their capacity to endure pain is like a bottomless pit.

But after arriving in this world, Mayumi Haga changed.

Lania saw more of Mayumi Haga's "human" side.

However, it seems that everything is about to go back to square one.

Mayumi should actually be angrier, sadder, and more selfish and willful than anyone else.

She once possessed the warmth and tenderness of a human being, and has always treasured that time deep in her heart. She has gradually recovered, but now, it seems she no longer wants to struggle to save herself.

If Mayumi had cried, she would have felt better, but she chose to endure it.

Lania didn't say anything more; she watched as Mayumi Haga walked out of the World Library.

Mayumi Haga came here to retrieve the data crystal, but it had already been moved. Since she couldn't get it back, it was better to go back sooner rather than later.

The train pulled into the station, and Mayumi Haga entered the carriage, which was completely empty.

She stood by the car door, turning her head to look at the scenery outside the window, until the World Library disappeared from sight.

Then he turned around and slowly leaned his back against the wall.

She bent over, her straight back bent, the girl's body was upright but also slender, and she was not much stronger than others.

He looks even more lonely and pitiful at this moment.

Mayumi Haga was somewhat at a loss.

Her plans were suddenly disrupted. It seemed that she would soon no longer need to bear such responsibilities, and she felt empty inside.

For the first time ever, she felt insecure; unease gripped her heart.

She sat down on the floor, trying to curl herself up in the corner of the carriage, burying her face between her knees.

By maintaining this posture, she could clearly hear her own heartbeat and breathing, as well as the sound of the train moving, which seemed to be isolated from the outside world by her body.

It felt like a huge hole had been ripped out of my heart, and the wind whistled through it, sounding like it was crying.

But Mayumi Haga did not.

Her eyes were dry, but her heart felt like it was being gripped by a hand.

So what exactly is she? She thought she was human, and that's why she resolutely chose to be a guardian, but now, even her initial motivation seems to have been shrouded in impurity.

But, but that's not the most important thing.

Although Mayumi Haga was brought to this point by fate, it was something she genuinely wanted to do.

She doesn't feel angry because she's a doll; in fact, everything she does comes from her heart.

She was just... a rare, precious time in her life when she was loved wholeheartedly.

Is it fake, Mom? I don't care how many setbacks you've made me go through, I don't care how much suffering I've endured during this time, and I won't be afraid of the pain of every separation.

But have you ever really thought of coming to see me even once?

I now know you're going to save the world, and you expect me to do so many things...

But...but...I...I miss you so much.

I have accepted the fact that you left.

But you have reincarnated so many times, deceived me so many times, and through such a long period of time, through the changing times, have you never once thought of coming to see me?

You didn't even stand far away to look at me...? Now, are you going to abandon me?

Just like my friends, just like the things I once cherished, will they also leave me and abandon me alone?

Yes.

Yes, I have indeed come to a new world and made new friends. There are always voices around me advising me to let go, but... but I am unwilling.

Haga Mayumi thought.

For a child to become an adult, they have to give up many things.

But Mayumi Haga's childhood was too short, and she matured too quickly, learning to make choices faster than anyone else.

She is a good child.

But she's too good, too obedient, and has never had the right to be willful.

A pair of boots appeared in the slightly blurry vision.

"Are you crying, Mayumi?"

"God appeared in the form of Sugiyama Rikka."

In the narrow, swaying carriage, a black-haired girl huddled in a corner, like an insecure puppy.

Her face was buried deep between her knees, making it impossible to see her expression.

God hesitated for a moment, then sat down next to her.

Then she peeked her head under Mayumi Haga's arm to see if she was crying: "...She's not crying yet, her eyes are dry..." Mayumi Haga: "...

...Could you please leave me alone for a while?

She tried very hard to use honorifics, after all, the face that God used was just too irritating.

It's hard to respect them.

"Oh, he's getting stubborn, that's great."

"God said with a grin, pinching her cheek, "That's what a child should be like."

"The powerful yet gentle god smiled and patted her head."

"It's okay for you to be a little willful, I really like you."

"

Aren't you in a competition?

When Mayumi Haga left the spiritual vein, she had a ring in her hand inlaid with a fiery red gemstone.

This is a transformation device that Sugiyama Rika has long since phased out.

When a Gemmon forms a contract with a new partner, it will transform into a shape that is suitable for that partner's use.

The red gem beast representing courage, Lion Ryan, was ring-shaped when he partnered with Sugiyama Rika.

When she was paired with Hitomi Tono, she wore a cherry blossom hair clip.

Mayumi Haga failed to retrieve the data crystal that had long been transferred, but things clearly took a turn for the better after she encountered a god.

The god is currently using Sugiyama Rika's appearance and can also directly take out the transformation device that Sugiyama Rika discarded and hand it to Haga Mayumi.

As for who Haga Mayumi intends to give it to, the gods don't care.

This thing should have been displayed in the World Library, but God ultimately had a preference for the red color scheme, so he took some of the transformation devices with him.

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She clearly likes Sugiyama Rika very much, who is currently the human closest to her and has a very interesting personality.

In terms of getting things done, he's generally reliable.

However, when Mayumi Haga asked about the whereabouts of Rika Sugiyama herself, the god did not intend to tell her.

She told Mayumi Haga to go find it herself.

Mayumi Haga felt that her unreliable guardian was currently not in any danger.

The guardian breathed a sigh of relief; after changing the subject, his previously terrible and annoyed mood was somewhat relieved.

She left, filled with sorrow, but she vaguely grasped something.

Too many things and truths came crashing down on her, leaving her somewhat disheveled and pathetically revealing her vulnerability. Looking back now, she feels truly ashamed…

However, it's not all bad.

While Mayumi Haga was still confused and at a loss, God made a promise.

“It’s okay to be a little willful…but within what limits?” Mayumi Haga pondered, stepping past the still intoxicated guards.